Needing, wanting, having....

The things you want...convincing yourself you need them...or so you think...the slogging away...the high motivation...the slow transformation...the fun thing to do....morphing into work...the feeling of boredom...the gnawing guilt...the needless doubting...the need to rebel...against what and whom...ill defined targets...the same old routine...the slacking and the lazing...the comfortable numbness...the urge to take it easy...the absence of will...the desire to chill...the inability to execute...fighting with the idealism...that can do spirit...getting crushed slowly...day by day...the ticking clock...changing motivations...the urge to connect...the absence of guts...the wish to articulate...perpetually falling short...that crucial first step...the desire to impact...the cynic's dismissal...denials within...a practised carefree shrug...hiding insecurities...the wishing and day dreaming...the sarcastic brushing away...masking discomfort...the desperation seeping in...the absence of action...the reluctance to lose...is it even a race? The wise guy sure said, enthusiasm is a dangerous thing to have....use it with care...but then, kids these days :|

P.S.: Yeah, yeah, take a bow gyaan guru :P :P